failkat

I've heard so many people tell those who suffer depression to just 'cheer up.' I wonder if they can really believe that it's that simple. Depression isn't just sadness. It is emptiness, it is misery. It is pain and nothingness at once. When you are truly depressed you lack the ability or will to cheer yourself up. No one just 'has depression.' You suffer from it. This is depression: You will wake at 5, 6, maybe 7am, feeling as though you had only just fallen asleep. It's likely you did. If you don't have to be somewhere, you could lie in bed for another 3 hours...too tired, too miserable and pathetic to crawl out of you bed. Or maybe you wi

It takes 14 minutes and twelve seconds to walk to your home from mine every day.  Your mother never fails to smile at me when she opens the door. I never fail to notice that it doesn't reach her eyes anymore. You leave your door open an exact two point three centimeters. I don't think you do it on purpose. There is something wrong with the wood that has left it that way. I pause one foot outside the door and listen to you cough, trying to determine how sick you feel today. I hate that every time I think you are particularly ill, I am always right. Six months, seventeen days and fourteen hours. That is how long its been since the d

My dearest Shay, I really hope you get this letter. It's been six months since you moved in with your father. All of this, "It's for the best" nonsense is finally really, really getting to me. At first I told myself that you wanted this, but I knew you really wanted to stay here with me. I tried hating you, but it failed miserably- I could never hate you. I tried forgetting you, but you were burned so deeply into my being, I could not. I thought my life would end, but it did not. So I let myself love you. I let myself love you with everything I had, because that was all I knew how to do. I might have lost everything in the process, but it w

black and blue beaten and bruised fallen but not forgotten survival and life trials and tribulations you are never forgotten life may throw you far away but that doesn't mean you can't return everyone falls but no one forgets so come back up from your self harming pit prove me wrong show me that you aren't as fallen after all